after that horrible night and fighting with Eddie over that ridiculous bullshit, I ended up leaving 7-11 early and headed to Breakers to get hammered. And he was there, extremely apologetic I suppose from the alcohol. I told him it was ok but he couldn’t stop saying he felt like a 5 dollar whore. Which he is but that’s another subject all together. We both ended up completely shitfaced, I have no idea how the hell we even got home. I don’t really remember anything til around 7 am when I woke up next to him naked on my couch. And after about 5 months of going without fucking each other he hits me full force out of the blue. And it was fantastic and totally unselfish and totally satisfying for us both. I’m so fucked up and confused and stressed right now its not even funny. Gotdamn.